2014 was a year that was supposed to be full of celebration for me, I was due to get married and had planned a great future. Two weeks before the wedding was to take place MY then fiancé decided to cancel. As you can imagine I felt heartbroken, ashamed, embarrassed as well as being depressed. At the lowest you think the worst and that was me , thinking of ending it all by the end of 2014 when I hit rock bottom.
I hated looking at myself, you could say I hated me, I had no love for my life or myself and this was on a downward spiral. An opportunity arose in late 2014, I had no clue how things were going to pan out but things had to change. It gave me a focus but I had no clear message for the world, I was sharing an amazing opportunity that was helping others yet for myself I was still not in love with me. I had put on 3 stones in weight and in denial thinking I was eating clean but telling myself lies – cheating myself.
It wasn’t until July of 2016 that I truly understood what my message was to the world. Unfortunately I was a witness to the Nice Attacks, as you can imagine the trauma of seeing people die in front you is something that will never leave you. It wasn’t until we got home that it felt like I’d been hit by a bus. The panic attacks, the feeling of suffocation, nightmares and not being able to venture out of the house without paranoia became life.
The feeling of being ashamed for surviving when so many others lost their lives, not feeling that I was able to talk openly about it. It wasn’t until I decided to take an holistic approach to my therapy that I realised that I had so many underlying issues that impacted me and the way I reacted to the events.
Recent events have made me realise that there’s so much more to any individual that meets the eye, they may seem ok from the outside but on the inside they could be screaming for help but don’t know who to ask or where to look. They have so many goals but don’t think they’re achievable.
Since these events I’ve lost over 3 STONES IN WEIGHT and have found an INNER CONFIDENCE that I never knew existed. I’m stronger, I’ve faced my fears and most of all I’ve began to LOVE myself.
My message to you is this … I’m ready to set up WINNERS of life, people who want to take back control of their lives and become the winners they’re destined to be.